Nature Has a Way of Finding Us All By CRAIG SPRINGER Published: January 23, 2005 (NYTimes) We are what we cross paths with, not what we seek out but what takes hold of us. These associations create our core. They become the essence of our being. A little stream grabbed a hold on me and became a meandering baseline, an anchor point from where I would take all bearings for things to come. Creek chub, smallmouth bass and green sunfish: they caught me. And it was angling for them that immersed me in a narrative with the stream and lands that drained into it. Four Mile Creek heads among the uplands near the Ohio-Indiana line in hills left behind by retreating glaciers. Tiny rivulets formed in the folds of the land, mostly cleared for corn and beans. One rivulet begets two and so on, forming Four Mile; the creek gathers them as it glides downhill, cutting over ancient glacial till carried far from the north. In these quiet waters, damselflies dimple their metallic-blue tails on the smooth glides as their eggs drop into the creek. They waft erratically on the wing as if they have no purpose or care. Save for entering the maw of a kingbird, they probably do not. Four Mile's erosive forces elbow into the foot of a hill, undercutting the banks that stay stitched together by sycamore roots. In the shade of the undercut, the shards of turquoise - little green sunfish - are there waiting for the groceries to come to them. It is a good strategy for making a living in a creek. Find a place to hide from herons and kingfishers, stay in shade so unsuspecting minnows cannot see you, and sit there and wait for food to come drifting. The strategy must work. Green sunfish live naturally all over the Midwest. And that speaks to their durability in extremes, not to mention their capacity to procreate. They look to me like a mix of smallmouth bass, bluegill and rock bass - like an animal confused, not knowing which evolutionary trajectory to take. A big gape allows green sunfish to eat most anything they want; bats and shrews have shown up in their gullets, but bugs are the favored fare. Among upland streams in the Midwest, the smallmouth bass is king, the green sunfish a mere commoner. But the literature professor Marcus Selden Goldman, who 90 years ago fished Four Mile Creek while at Miami of Ohio, strikes a chord in his book "In Praise of Little Fishes": "The crowd in its ignorance deems it manly and impressive to catch crappies and bluegill, but scorns anything called 'sunfish.' The result of this attitude is that only seasoned and thoughtful anglers know or care to know how to identify the different species of sunfishes." I don't disagree, but I know of no one who would plan a fishing trip around green sunfish. And I must admit, I probably wouldn't either. But I would like to see Four Mile again. It's a yen in part for yesterday; a yearning to reacquaint myself with that baseline, the habitat where I came of age. Neil Young said it perfectly in song: "In my mind I still need a place to go. All my changes were there." Too many summers have slipped downstream. But still, in my mind's eye a diving beetle lumbers to the surface for air and a blue damselfly on a water willow moves its wings lightly and gracefully. The sodden smell of sticky mud fills my head. I can feel in my forearm the sudden tear of a smallmouth bass taking off with a spinner. And I wouldn't mind the light plodding of one of those little cyan sunfish with a mouth big enough to take whatever it can. A creek is more than a place for bass and bream, warblers and wood ducks. It is a habitat for people. Habitat conservation benefits people. Creeks course through people. A tall, fat, gray-green sycamore on a shady undercut bend grows naked with age. Slow-moving dark water spattered with yellow sunlight pours over fossil-littered limestone slabs. In the shelter of a pool in a tangle of roots, little fish wait there, the wild consequences of time preserved in living turquoise shards.